Current Mood: Bored

This morning I cleaned the entire house.  Well, floors, and bathrooms. lol. I called grandma and then mom called.  I had to keep myself from crying :/.  Meh, it’s mostly fine but when I talk to them I just feel weird!  But as you can see, I’m doing fine and I can take care of things ;)  I cooked lunch, porkchops with carrot rice, and a fried egg.  It turned out alright though the rice wasn’t cooked enough…

After lunch I walked to the closest mall and bought a few things, rented some movies.  I don’t think I’ll be hanging out with anyone today, maybe Jo.  *shrug*  Tomorrow I’m spending the day with my cousins, should be fun.

I did quite alot of shopping this week, I got the Katy Perry cd, Jason Mraz, and Alicia Keys.  I haven’t listened to them enough to form an opinion though.  I also bought Now & Then (watched that yesterday, it’s awesome!) It was nice to see Devon naked again even if he was so young LOL.  I bought Wild America too and I might watch that soon, and today I got My Big Fat Greek Wedding (aww!), and I rented Sydney White, and 27 Dresses.  Should be fun!

Ok so this isn’t so bad.  I stopped crying.  I saw the new Batman movie last night, and I feel so bad for Heath What a great role he played, it’s such a loss! *sigh*  But yeah, went out with people from work and that was great :D.  Today I’m having dinner over at a cousin’s house.  And I might be visiting Toronto next weekend too!  But I haven’t decided yet, I’m still a bit depressed.  We’ll see.

Current Mood: Cool

I don’t feel as crappy as I thought…I’m just kind of taking things chill lol.  Work went well today.  I got alot of little things done and that makes such a difference!  But now I have to deal with wireframes and the booth design.  Blah.  It’s fine once the idea is settled upon really.

The weather has been terrible all week, and finally we got some sun this afternoon, and tomorrow, yay!!!!  It was getting depressing.  The beginning of the week was painful…But yeah.  I started reading again!  I picked up this book called “Sleeping with the Fishes” (lol), it’s part one of a series, about a mermaid.  Yeah.  Not the Ariel kind, this one is arrogant and wild and bitchy!  But it makes you laugh really.  Now she has two hot men after her *dies*.

I need to watch Sailor Moon again, I didn’t yesterday and the day before.  OMG.  Yesterday evening was crazy!  I had two aunts over, one lives in Florida.  They had supper with us and both of them gave me money, aww.  But then we had to drive them back downtown and it took 2 hours back and forth ahh!  They closed down stuff and there was traffic, because of the fireworks.  We got a good view of them at least :D.  It was something.

I’ve been eating like a pig lately, all these deserts and crap keep ending up in front of me, I hope it stops.  It’s not directly my fault half the time, so I think it should be ok.  But I gained 2 pounds and I’m not happy about it :(.  Meh.

Current Mood: Angry & Sad

I just bitched out the man that I care for a few minutes ago.

I feel bad, but he had it coming…

Gave him shit for not speaking to me, not asking how I am or wishing me Happy Bday.  He said he didn’t know when it was (I told him), and sorry for bothering me.  And left. I feel two sided about this.  Part of me is proud, because I can’t have him treating me like shit, but the other one wants to cry and will pretty much have self hatred pretty soon.

I wish he didn’t run away…I want this to work but the right way, he has to respect me a little more

It was a stormy day and I wasn’t too motivated at work.  I had to make this power point and nothing was clear.  And Nicole (marketing sup.) was commenting how I don’t treat type like I do with image, like I treat images better.  She pretty much found out what I’m worst at.  So I have to improve that, can I do it? Sigh.  I did some shopping after work and it made me feel better, grabbed some bubble tea, bought some novels to read and lip balm for my cousin.  One more gift to go for another cousin. Blah.

I feel like shit right now *cries*.

This weekend has been totally boring!  Friday night I watched Dirty Dancing (aww), and Saturday afternoon I bought a pink top…wearing it right now.  And a Totes umbrella, a really good brand I’m gonna try out.  It’s kind of worn already but it’s super light and it was only ten dollars!

Anyway…some of you know about whats going on next week, I don’t wanna mention it here because I’m paranoid as it is:) But I’m scared!  I mean I know people will be around to support me and help out if needed but still.  *Takes deep breaths*  I just had to let that out somehow lol.

This rain crap is depressing me, its been rainy all day and tomorrow as well, and scattered showers all week.  WTF, it’s July!  I want the sun :(  Blah I have errands to run tomorrow, I need to put something in the mail, and I have yoga class at the gym.  It started 2 weeks ago and I’m starting to really enjoy it!  It’s nothing compared to Louise’s classes but she does well for a new teacher.  I find we do the hard postures a bit often but oh well, what matters is that I feel great doing it.

I’m trying to get some plans together to do lots of fun stuff soon.  Go camping, spend the day at LaRonde (rides), meet up with people I haven’t seen in forever, and hang out with family:)  Should take my mind off things.  Oddly enough, Devon has been in my head alot lately, ever since things with Evan went haywire.  It’s like the idea of him comforts me in a way, weird…I don’t really have romantic feelings for him that much, still got my head wrapped with E but less I find…sigh, looks like I’ll be getting over it and finding someone new…I feel like he’s some sort of ex-boyfriend now.  We were so close, we have everything it takes to make it, why does he have to be so stubborn?  I hope he realizes what a dick he is

I bought a Brandi Carlile cd the other day, I can’t say I really like it that much, but I love the single!!  It’s called “The Story” (it’s on my myspace), it reminds me of true love, even if I don’t know if I’ll ever finally get mine :(  Sigh.  I watch everyone else get married and have kids.  But yet I’m pretty happy with things now. It’s two sided.  Blah.  I’m rambling and I guess I’ll stop it here:)

With the recent road work, construction building, and renovation in this city, I’ve noticed that my hitting getting hit on is becoming an issue.  It seems that a worker, with so much responsibility, has the time to shout out “You’re pretty!!”, and will continue shouting it, if you don’t turn their way.  Why is it that this category of person feels so inclined to receive attention?  I mean, you ARE tearing down a street, you ARE building a home, so for the love of god, get to work.

That is all on that.

I had a great work day, I got all my weekly planning done on time, I didn’t do much during the day or so it seems, spent most of it editing pages and deciding on green vs blue, lol.  Ahh designing.  And this morning the thunder woke me up, that was horrid.  I got to episode 169 in Sailor Moon, I’m now into the Japanese subs.  I want a vacation, its not fair I’m watching everyone else go!  Jo will be back soon though, hopefully we can do something.  TGIF

Using wordpress in my blog! So I’m back people, did ya miss me? Much has changed since I last blogged here. I have a JOB! And I’m learning about myself too, both the good and bad about me. Watching tons of sailor moon…oddly connected to that anime. I’m sucked into it so badly that I spend hours a day watching episodes…takes me away from things I guess, the ideal way to forget about work after a long day. Work is fine though, I like it, though I don’t have much work now, I’ll be busy once the other graphic designer leaves Gah, what will I do? He has been around for 4 years and knows way more than me. Meh.

I mostly do spammy things, poker ads, mailers, but I’m really learning alot honestly. I love it! I got really lucky and I love being downtown.

But yeah…I have been having odd dreams lately. It’s always night time, and there are people trying to shoot me, or my family. It’s so scary. I think I’m afraid of the future, but I always am. I’m a scaredy cat lol. Sigh. Oh well.

You all should thank JenJen she installed this for me because I’m lazy lol.

p.s. I have no love life and guys are the biggest trouble makers ever.